Justin Bieber may have taken home the award for Top Male Artist at last night’s Billboard Music Awards, but that doesn’t mean the Canadian pop star had a good time.
The Purpose singer appeared to be enjoying a successful night by anyone’s standards, performing a high-energy rendition of his single, “Sorry,” and taking home the coveted Top Male Artist award. Bieber posted the typical ‘I-was-at-an-awards-show-and-it-was-awesome’ social media pics, first joking about his buzz cut and later captioning a pic with the gorgeous Jessica Alba as ‘Alba.’
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But only two hours later, Justin seemed to be singing a different tune about the BBMA and award shows in general.
Returning to Instagram, Bieber wrote, “I don’t feel good when I’m there (at awards show) nor after. I try to think of it as a celebration but can’t help feeling like people are rating and grading my performance. A lot of people in the audience there to be seem worried about how much camera time they will get or who they can network with.”
Bieber posted a vague picture along with the diatribe, with the visuals open to interpretation. Is he saying performers are like sheep following the herd of popularity? Artists are locked away in towers? Award shows are black clouds over beautiful landscapes? Musicians are treated like royalty only to later be beheaded by the media? This Scottish castle popped up as his Windows screensaver today and he was feeling it?
Whatever the reasoning behind Bieber’s #SorryNotSorry image, it will be interesting to watch in the months that follow whether Bieber remains a staple on the awards show circuit or sticks to performing only in concert.
I don’t know about these award shows.. No disrespect to anybody at any of the shows or the people running it. Nothing but love for you guys and your support. But I don’t feel good when I’m there nor after. I try to think of it as a celebration but can’t help feeling like people are rating and grading my performance. A lot of people in the audience there to be seem worried about how much camera time they will get or who they can network with. When I’m doing a regular show I feel they are there for the right reasons and to strictly have a good time! But these award shows seem so hollow. I get the premise is to award people for their accomplishments, but is it really? Because when I look in the audience I see a bunch of fake smiles so that when the camera hits them they look happy. Sure there are people truly proud of others so I don’t want to knock them I’m just looking at the vast majority. I just think to myself if I’m living my purpose I want the reward to be fulfillment. I’m getting awarded for the things that I’m doing and not for who I am which is understandable I know it would probably be hard to calculate and award someone’s spirit lol. But When I do get these awards the temptation of putting my worth in what I do is so hard to fight!!!I am privileged and honored to be recognized by my peers in but in these settings I can’t feel the recognition. There’s an authenticity missing that I crave! And I wonder does anybody else.. Sorry not sorry about grammar it’s not my strong point